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Jun. 11th, 2014 05:11 pm
tehkittykat: a test pattern melting out of a tv into the world (threadless; color tv)
[personal profile] tehkittykat
I think I might take a break from RPing and attempting to look at plurk. Going through a pissy period because of employment sucking, and I'm a little bummed since there are maybe two people online who actually talk to me anymore. I shouldn't be so surprised that this happened since I had a circle of people I RPed with a few years ago and the same thing happened when I left that game-- most people just stopped talking to me. Probably doubly so since plurk anymore seems to be one gigantic self-pity circle-jerk and I'm really tired of woe is me and an avalanche of hug emotes being 90% of what I see when all I really want to talk about is actual stuff. (The other 10% being about games I'm not involved/interested in... but seriously when did endless bitching about things become the norm when I wasn't looking? Well.. ok that and Game of Thrones, but I refuse to have anything to do with it because I like my fiction to be escapism and there's nothing escapist about assholes having shitty lives and dying senselessly and gruesomely while the even bigger assholes make out like kings... If I want that I can watch CNN. And yes I am speaking from experience because I tried really hard to read the first book when it came out and the only storyline I actually finished was Dany's because the rest was so fucking grimdark. First time I didn't finish a book in my preferred genre.)

Just gonna chuck tags into the archives for now and take some time off. I like the games I'm in, just not sure if I really wanna continue with it at the moment. Maybe it was starting off with tabletop that got me because I'm just used to actually being friends however transiently with my rp buddies and it's just not happening anymore, so that sorta sucks the fun out of it. Maybe I need to put together a tabletop group or something.

In other news, I finished reading a book about introversion. It was interesting-- lots of space devoted to the biological basis for introversion and how our cultural ideas about extroversion always being better are stupid for a variety of reasons. It sort of skimmed the idea of how extroverts can better support the introverts in their lives, but it was pretty interesting reading. And then I read The Grand Design by Stephen Hawking, but it seemed a lot more muddled than his last book since the gist seemed to be anthropic principle because quantum physics. I sort of got what he was talking about, but The Cosmic Landscape really lays out the case better for the idea that the universe is a ridiculously crazy and diverse place and we shouldn't be surprised that we're here because out there somewhere is everything that could have ever possibly existed.

And now I'm reading a Star Wars book because reasons. Thrawn is a total Gary Stu little shit and it's kind of glorious when it's not eyerollingly annoying, but the Jedi are assholes again and it makes me roll my eyes. Sure, Lucas, retcon the Jedi into being completely emotionally repressed in the Old Republic era because that's so the kind of people you want being the protagonists. I mean hell the Sith are cartoon villains and they still often come across as being more complete people than half the Old Repub-era Jedi are. (Not reading the New Jedi Order books, nope. Read the first one and then I was like this is bullshit and stopped. See earlier statement about hating things that get grimdark just because, and from all I've looked at that references it, things just get worse.)

Tempted to track down the trilogy about Darth Bane just because he sounds fun. Also still waiting for the other Darth Maul novel to come out in paperback because the last one was fun even though the prose was purple as hell.

Date: 2014-06-12 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [personal profile] whatistigerbalm
Sure, Lucas, retcon the Jedi into being completely emotionally repressed in the Old Republic era because that's so the kind of people you want being the protagonists. I mean hell the Sith are cartoon villains and they still often come across as being more complete people than half the Old Repub-era Jedi are.

This is how I felt about the Matrix, too. The first film was fine on its own but after that the programs turned out to have a lot more variety and character to them than the humans we were supposed to root for. In the end it kinda redeemed itself by not destroying the Matrix but leaving it in the hands of the next generation of programs, but way to undo your idea guys. Lucas' stuff is bordering on irredeemable for me, storywise.

Date: 2014-06-13 01:20 am (UTC)
infiniteviking: A noncommital bluejay on a perch. (4)
From: [personal profile] infiniteviking
If you don't want to deal with plurkpeople, you are 100% allowed to not deal with them. I've gone quiet on a lot of folks because all they talk about there is games I'm not in, fandoms that aren't my thing, and memes that pop up too frequently to deal with.

Putting together a tabletop group sounds like a good idea. Local gaming friends are a whole different experience.

The introversion book sounded fascinating; I lurked in that discussion for a bit. Didn't feel up to contributing without reading it.

The Old Republic facepalmery is why I can't deal with the prequels or the EU. Not really inclined to enjoy watching the inevitable downfall of a society whose main talking point is that they're clueless nitwits unable to understand why their ridiculously flawed policies are failing everyone.

Date: 2014-06-13 09:15 am (UTC)
infiniteviking: A bemused emu. (9)
From: [personal profile] infiniteviking
It is. Same with a fandom; same with a social network (or a rl group of colleagues). There's always attrition. Feels like it's lucky if I get to keep two or three people when a particular network breaks up, though there'll always be those folks one can reconnect with years later and still click with seamlessly.

Ooh. Online tabletop as in instructions, or as in playing online? Meatspace games have the advantage of forcing the group to be in the same physical space at the same time, but online tabletop would probably be interesting too.

Yeah, ugh. So done with that.

Date: 2014-06-14 03:27 am (UTC)
eatthemfirst: (Just chilling)
From: [personal profile] eatthemfirst
Old Republic Jedi are sadly assholes across pretty much all of SW media. Dunno if you ever played KotOR or KotOR 2 (awesome RPGs; I'd strongly recommend giving them at least a try for non-Jedi reasons), but they do a nice job showing how the system got broken around the Mandalorian Wars-- even when 90% of Jedi were trying to be good people, their whole system was skewed enough to make indoctrination and righteousness a norm.

Re: plurk, it's both understandable and... unavoidably crappy. I know for me, because I don't tend to put much of my offline things on plurk, RP and RP activities are the main way I connect with people there. With >100 people "friended", I'm not putting out the emotional energy to care about offline every single person on my timeline, and it gets harder to reflexively sort which plurks to look into and which to just skim past. Which is a tl;dr-y way of saying I tend to depend on game or fandom tags, and I think a lot of other people do too.

Offline games are a much better way to connect with people, definitely, and good luck finding a tabletop group. Just curious (since I'm obviously not in your area), but what tabletop games do you play?

Also, you mention you're thinking about taking a break from RP. 100% understandable if you want to; I think it could probably help the frustration a lot. Just wanting to ask, though-- any thoughts on if you'll stay active in Crux? I dropped off a reserve there last week and am starting to slowly piece an app together, but... to be completely honest, I've mostly been doing it so I can have a game to play with you in. (And Re, if she's still there.) The game itself doesn't seem quite as much my style, but it's slow, and would be worth it for the chance to toss a character off you. Are you likely to stick around, or should I re-evaluate? (Or bug you for memes or other games or things if you're interested, but it sounds like you need a break.)
eatthemfirst: (Small victories)
From: [personal profile] eatthemfirst
Fff, absolutely. To be fair, said good people take over at a few points, and actually make something decent of it more than once, especially in the NJO. That said... any organization that has a founding code that goes "there is no emotion" and "there is no passion" has some serious issues. One of the more snarky-awesome KotOR party members points out that the one thing the Sith and Jedi can agree on is hating any and all forms of love.

And yeah, I don't follow everyone. There's just a lot of people there I do need to follow for game CR things who also plurkspam their daily meals, so... skimming happens frequently. :P

Sounds like fun! I grew up on 3.5 and 4e D&D and branched out to new-WoD and other quirkier systems (Serenity RPG, Hackmaster, etc.) in high school/college. The bookkeeping/"...dots" balance is pretty tricky and definitely relies a lot on the GM to hold things together, whatever the system; I've had GMs make awesome things of any of these systems, and also played in games that really really... didn't.

Makes sense, and thanks for the heads up. I looked around the comms when I reserved and couldn't tell if it was dead or just very slow. Given ambivalence, I'll probably hold off apping until it either resurrects or dies. Let me know if you start up with anything new?

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